Lily Wedding Dress

English patient

My whole apartment is clean... family room, kitchen, bedroom, bathroom... I feel very accomplished... I feel like I can't get anything done when I have a messy house... and now it's clean... so hopefully I can get things done now.

... what a waste. I want to go to the grocery store and stock my kitchen, but I have no money.

I need a job. I need a career... I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore.

I want to go back to Morocco.

blah

I am a hermit... I rarely leave my house; only do so to work out or go to school or go to my internship... I'm a grandma.

I feel like I don't know anyone who can hang out and have fun without drinking, and that makes me sad. That's why I enjoy craft nights + hannah - alcohol.

I read high school journals tonight. Things were much more simple then, I wish I could go back sometimes... only if I did, I wouldn't talk like I used to; man I sounded stupid.

I can't believe I used to own one of these...

.... this freaks me out.

Negatives?

I just scanned in a whole bunch of negatives... I'm having a lot more fun with my project now than I was before.

Vova and I have been doing a ton of home improvments, it's fun. Here's him and his dad when we were all painting the master bedroom.

They cute.

Saturday night we went to go see the Richmond Renegades... I haven't watched hockey since high school, I miss going to hockey games... and wearing the captain's jersey, hah! I'm a dork, we sat real high up.

Hannah's been coming over for crafts a lot lately. It's nice. I miss my friends. She has since gotten me addicted to collaging... I got this scrapbook thing when I was in high school from my uncle, and I'm finally filling it with things... it's fun. I like when Hannah comes to me house :)

And... I love reading Russian... and russian food.

Brittany and I met up with Paul and Tom today, and had a long admin/teacher meeting. It was nice, we got a lot of questions answered. I feel a lot better about the whole situation and how to keep the class running smoothly. I feel like a teacher?

Kay... I go swim laps!

Sometime Vladimir is a good photographer too...

He just knows how to capture a moment...

Photo Survey Fun

Photo Survey I got from Hanner... funnnn

1. Photo of you in your room...

this is the only picture I have in my room... Paloma and me

2. a picture of you posing with someone you don't actually like.

eh... I like everyone, but I guess this counts.

3. Picture with someone you used to have a crush on

Photo camp crushes... haha. See how shocked when he kissed me?

4. Picture of you very drunk.

This one speaks for itself, right?

5. Picture of you with a parent or two

Papa

Mama

6. Picture of you on your birthday or favorite holiday

On my 21st birthday

7. Youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form

My mom should have been on project runway...

8. A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits

Nice top, skinny jeans, big purse... ... long blonde hair ::sigh:: not my favorite face, though.

9. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera

This was a fun day... and that's a goofy face.

10. A picture you might have edited to make yourself more attractive.

I edited my hand... to take away a shadow.

11. Picture of a night you regret.

Very much regret what happened this night, but overall, glad it did, made me a better person.

12. Picture of you showing off a new hair cut (even if its an old haircut now)

Bangs... and dark brown streaks

13. Picture of you truly being yourself

14. Picture of you being absolutely ridiculous

This is pretty ridiculous to me

15. Picture that you're tagged in facebook on that you're not actually in

I guess Sarah thinks I resemble this kitty?

16. Picture of a time in your life that's over that you wish wasn't

I so wish I could go back to these moments... with these people

17. Picture of a time in your life that's over and you couldn't be more thankful that it is

Don't get me wrong... I had a great time during these times... but I'm glad they're over, and I'm glad I've grown up.

18. Picture with your oldest friend

My best friend... I still remember the day we met, when she thought I was Sarah Smith at hampton oaks, when the classes for 5th grade came up... haha

19. Picture with your newest friend

My new friend Eliott Christopher!

20. Picture of you when you were anything but happy

Yeah... I think this one fits that ...

21. Picture that you had no idea was being taken

I mean... obviously I didn't know, but I always loved this picture.

22. Picture of you when you were a different person than you are now

I think I was a much better person back then..

23. Picture with someone you love

I love my Nikki more than words can say, and I miss her SO much.

24. Picture of how you'd like the world to see you

... blonde and tan. Is that so bad?

25. Picture of time in your life when everything was changing.

Living in my first apartment, getting a new job, new boyfriend, new everything.

26. Picture that describes how you would like to spend everyday

I would love to live this day over and over again.

27. Picture that makes your heart hurt

Looking back at those pictures always makes my heart hurt, thats when my heart hurt the most it's ever hurt.

28. Picture that makes your heart smile

Hanging out with my baby neice, it was so cool to hold her for the first time

29. Picture of one of the best nights of your life (or days)

Best day of my life

Definitely the best night of my life...